thank you.

first off, thank you everyone so much for all of the comments, texts, and messages that i received from my last post in regard to our miscarriage.  i really wasn't looking for anything more than to hopefully reach someone that may have or may be going through something similar, but the response that i received from so many amazing people was unbelievable!  all of the comments showing support or even those who spoke out to say that they have gone through a miscarriage also, just goes to show that when people open up, it allows others a pathway to do the same.  often times i think that we hide things that make us feel like we are different or aren't good enough and that is so far from the truth.  truth is, we all walk different roads in life and we all have different struggles.  none of which makes us any less. if anything, all of the different paths make us stronger, smarter, and sometimes even more of an inspiration to others. 

i am sending thoughts and good vibes to all of you that reached out privately to ask questions about fertility or that offered a story of their own.  it really means a lot that you would trust me with your stories. Plus, i think having a great support system is so pivotal when you are dealing with something that may not be the norm.  so thanks for letting me in and also for allowing me to lean on all of you.  

i said it last year, but i really think that this is the year of pregnancy for john and i and also so many of you!  i am trying to have a better attitude about things and just learning to live in the day or each moment that comes.  this is a 100% struggle for me for so many reason, but i am trying my best!  i am going to take medication and appointments in stride and i know that this will all be worth it one day!

in the mean time, i put this outfit on today because the weather is absolutely stunning and it made me realize that i need to seriously get in shape and get a tan!  summer is coming quickly and i feel like i have stored up on food and hibernated the winter away.  time to get out of that mentality.  i can't wait for warmer weather though... i could really use some vitamin d!  also, i think that this top bun thing just may be my new hairstyle for... everyday.  pure laziness, i know!  to be honest... i haven't even washed it today ;)